Spring Thoughts

Some folks will understand this... The last few months and especially the last several weeks I've been holding it together. Cracking slowly on the inside. When it gets bad I dig in. Do more work to overshadow the pain. But only when it becomes unbearable to where it stops me in my tracks I begin to realize that what I'm going through has nothing to do with anyone or even this place. My mind is forcing me to be here... but my soul is back over seas replaying and going through the motions of everything that took place over the last several weeks leading up to this week... where on the 8th of May 2010 I lost my Ranger Buddy CPT Kyle A Comfort.

There is no doubt Kyle and all my Ranger buddies who were killed over these past weeks would love what I'm doing in honor of them and vets who paid the ultimate sacrifice... But for me it's a bit tough trying to keep my emotions in check and be the tip of the spear for everyone else. I'm sharing this because I know for a fact that there are many veterans and folks that follow what I'm doing who don't speak out about the things that makes them sad. Hiding behind smiles until the pain goes away or trying not to say something mean to the ones you love the most. I understand because like you I am human. It's ok to shed. It's ok to feel broken... but it's never ok to stop being the best version of you everyday. There is nothing better than a little @johndeere time to work through your thoughts. For many of us Spring means something totally different to the rest of the world.

With that...I'm gonna listen to What my Grandmother always tells me... Don't Just Hang in there... Stay right in the Middle!!

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